Depression

dudes, it's evident now, I'm in depression. It's scaring me. and it's all because of school and school related things.

Like, first off, my Best friend's not hanging out at lunch anymore... :*(
Then, second, my ex isn't talking to me anymore. I need to talk to him... It's important as hell, but, he's not talking to me... and I feel it's all my fault. I shouldn't but I do.
Third, I was pulled out of science class to be told to "let out my emotions" in the councelor's office. she was all "you know whatI hate about americans? They have to hold every emotion in, like they can't cry. You can cry, jackie. you can cry if you waant to. Don't hold it in."

creepy.
Fourth, Nick isn't talking to me at ALL! he wasn't there for me, never will, and god just wants me to feel horrible right now and it feels like no one's on my side. Even when someone SHOULD, god damn him, he's not. ... :(

If only he knew. I told him to talk to me... why won't he listen... he doesn't care. ... help. :*(